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i decided to take my ljay off generator cause it randomly got so messed from what it was before, and i picked this wonderful little new layout that they give you...i'm not sure why i'm updating. i'm the most confused little girl that you'll ever speak to, and i don't even think i could begin to write down half of what i'm feeling or thinking. the weird thing it, i'm not really doing much about the thinking, for the first time i think i'm just feeling. i've betrayed my fellow scorpios haha =) <3

one year ago:

[18 Jul 2004|03:09pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | punchlinee-power offf ]

imhomeimhomeimhomeimhome

im home, and that's all that matter. lake george... was sorta terrible. i feel bad complaining. i had fun one night. it mostly rained. i shopped? alot? sorta? but didnt buy anything really a tall. i missed so much things, and realized how much i overlook this place. although i hated long island, i never thought i could miss it so much. i love this stupid house and hicksville. idno what more to say.. the end?

this yearr

lake george was one of the most amazing trips i've ever been on. i wish i didn't have to come home. maybe i would just want to bring a select few that i missed when i was there. other than that, there's nothing that tempting about long island to make me come back. it's not fair that a person can be shown an image of paradise and be forced to live there for a week, then forced to go back to their original hell. it;s not too bad here. i can shop again haha, and i did miss some people. i just miss smores, and the beach, and playnig with dumb flashlights, writing names in the sand, cute people, the rave, not being able to swim for my life, cookies& bars, walking around in a bathing suit 24/7, pat, chocolate donuts, sitting out, bug spray, sun tan lotion, volleyball, cute people (again), sooo much more. im not getting into the memories because erin's entry basically explains it. everytme i look at the lake george pics they put a smile on my face. i set up my photo album yesterday night, and so far i've probably looked at it about 10 times. but liek steve said, it's a vacation. people go on a great vacation, but it's only meant to last for a short period of time. because that's why it's a vacation.. not life. i'm happpy.

Have you ever wondered if there was more to life, other than being really, really, ridiculously good looking?

i stole this

If you were a month, you'd be: Octubre
If you were a holiday, you'd be: Halloween
If you were a time of day, you'd be: 10:26
If you were a planet, you'd be: jupiter
If you were a historical figure: marilyn monroe *ehem*
If you were a liquid, you'd be: hot chocolateeee
If you were a tree, you'd be: lemontreeeee
If you were a bird, you'd be: a humming bird
If you were a flower, you'd be: a sunflower
If you were a kind of weather, you'd be: summer weather, when the suns going down.. or fall/spring day.
If you were a mythical creature, you'd be: fairy
If you were a musical instrument, you'd be: flute
If you were an animal, you'd be: a monkkey, or a really cute puppy =)
If you were a color, you'd be: lime green
If you were an emotion, you'd be: happy/excited
If you were a fruit, you'd be: an orange! or a banana of course
If you were a sound, you'd be: rain against the window
If you were a food, you'd be: mashed potatoes
If you were a place, you'd be: nyc,italy,australia. (not sure which one)
If you were a taste, you'd be: Chocolate or strawberry
If you were a scent, you'd be: a fire
If you were a word, you'd be: nonchalant
If you were a subject in school, you'd be: art or english
If you were a shape, you'd be a: a heart

im going crasy tonight. its a snowday. so i have to eat. its so bad. i feel terrible about eating all of this.theres nothing healthy in my house, idno what to do mwahaha. im thinking about going and stenciling on one of my bags. im so bored. i shoudl study u.s or math or something. i hate how all of my amazingamazing plans were ruined due to snow today. i sometime hate online, because when im so bored i can talk and talk forever. and it just doesnt stop coming out, and i think people get sick of me. or at least i do. idno. i wish it was pretty outside so i could go running on the track, and go to someones house and walk with them reallly far. i miss summers, and walking everywhere with my friends, and being able to take adventures..or when your hanging out with a bunch of your friends on their block, and you sit there and you can feel it getting cooler and slowly getting darker. and that time is the best time of the night, because you are just sitting in the grass laughing over jokes. or in the summer laying in the middle of sears parking lot with meg, while we talk about everything in life. while all the boys stand next to their cars and make fun of us for being so girly and looking at the stars while talking because its just not in their nature. i miss wearing skirts and flip flops, and walking to parks meeting new people i dont know and being stupid kids hanging out in levittown. or when you walk with them soo far because they want to get"crunk", and we have to walk a mile to a gas station when we walked there for nothing... and actually have to walk all the way back when its like 11 already. or walking home late at night in skirts and flip flops with maggie, passing holy trinnity saying "we'll be back here in a month" and every few times it gets sooner and finally one day it comes to us saying "we'll be back there this monday." i miss not having to carry a jacket with me when i go shopping in the mall, and just being able to stroll inside wearing a skirt and a teeshirt. or when your walking forever and ever with your friends, and finally you get to the place you need to be. and the second you walk in the door you feel so thankful for that airconditioning. i miss when work was so hott we would feel like we were going to faint the whole time, instead of now being so cold i feel like im to die everytime i have to cut the bakery string with my hand. i miss swings, and my pond in the backyard. i miss skirtsskirtsskirts. and buying them. because i looooove them. i miss my old house, and how in the summer we would go outside of my room onto the roof and walk around it at night. or how i used to go tanning on top of it while my stereo was blasting inside my room. i miss adventureland, and tri-county fair. even tho im terrified of heights, there are still so many rides i love. and zeppolees. i could really go on forever, but i should stop. i love winter, and snowtubing, and snowmen, and scarfs and gloves, and hot chocolate. but i really do miss the summer. sooon.

weee. my computah FINALLY works. thanks to my lover. thankyouthankyouthankyou. i missed this computer

erin mcguire VISITED me, jenna carapezza today in work when i was dying and sick. and i love her for it. because it made me so happy and put the biggest smile on my face for the next like year. im sorry i couldnt talk longer. its because i smell really bad. but i love you. times a millionkazillionbajillion and 49. <333333333333333333333lovee! seriously. thankyousoomuchhh!

i love when its really cold, and when i finally get under my comforter, and the way your body feels while it sjust warming up under the covers..

i love when my feet are really really cold, and im laying under the sheets and i run my foot up my leg.

i love laying unde sheets with a boyy while our feet touch eachother

i love cuddling with them

i love that smile a boy gives a girl when they are looking up at you after you made a joke or they are plainly just giving you that "i like you" smilee

i love going to taco bell, after having the worst night ever and dancing with you best friend to the radio, and making friends with some random lonely person that works there every weekend..

i love songs that are just so good, that they fill you with so much passion.. or that one breakdown of a song when it just puts you in the best moood, and makes oyu feel amazing.

i love when your watching something on tv.. and you just feel your eyes start to close on you, and you know your falling asleep.

i love when your sitting in the car next to a guy in front, and the windows open and the winds just blowing in your face

or when your sitting in the car with your friends driving around, with the music playing..and just driving anywhere

ha or when yourr so hungry and it feels like you havent eaten anything in days. and you takee that first bite of whatever your dying for.

going on the swings with your best friends or just anyone and talking about life, and anything at all in your head..even tho i do it all the time.. and the way it just never ever gets old.

i hafta go entertain company. but to be continued. because i like talking about things that make me happy ha

i copied this from lei anddddd erinn <333

post any memories you have with me.
good ones, bad ones, old ones, anything.

doo it slut<333